pretty sweet day... kinda boring day.... only highlite was getting guitar... but night...whoaa... went bowling and like there was suppose to be a butt load of people there but i sux agian at making plans. so it was just me jen shawn kallie anthony jarred and angharad. some of us bowled for one game. then ZEST DINER. such a great place. everyone didnt like the pancakes... and that is y i dont order ...da fudgin pancakes... thats y i just stick with my coffee and my pizza fries and my mozzi sticks. after that i took jen home. which was the bets part of the night may i say..... haha went to the hospital and had to give mouth to mouth.... haha... after that i went back to the house where eveyone was waitting for my ass to get home. we sat around and strumed the gee tar. finnally everyone left and i went bowling agian.... not as much fun as i thought it would be. i still feel like a fucking charity or a damn chore...... but wtf life goes on. but tonight was a good night except for the whole charity and chore frigin thing............................ and is this happening. is wat i have been waiting for happening. has time stopped.... or has time just started. here i stand almost a new man ready to grip wat ever comes in way. already it feels as if i can dive though the sidewalk. it seems like i can rip open the concrete walls. why so soon. such a strong feeling like none ever achieved. and this one im sure of and not just gueessing and making myself believe. its happening and its falling together and not apart. its falling like pieces of a puzzle with no missing pieces.... all i need to know now is wat is it the picture of. i can make it out almost... just wat is it and y wont it finish faster.... it knows. it knows it wants to do it but.... it still doesnt need to ... yet 

Tonight was one of the greatest nights ever. went to booths corners after school, and i had to drive pryia and stef home. on the way to pryias she like kept goin turn back there missing every spot where i was suppose to turn.... EVER HER HOUSE! haha shes great. after that me, eddie, and jimmy went to jim's house and played golden eye. haha i dominate. FINALLY, we went to annas and i got to be with jen for the night. watched aladin .... or how ever the hell u spell it... damn u indianish names.... after we watched harold and coomar go to white castle. good movie. but afterwards i drove jen home and that was lets just say exciting. i had to pull up to the house and not make any noise or her parents would run out and prob rape me. but everything turned out perfect and everything about today was awesome. even when pryia couldnt remember where she lived.

Lives and souls fly by but only i know y. but the ice swinging in my head leaves total scratches and scars inside. they will heel but they will still be a rememberance of the broken glass that cut. my brain kicks and screams but only i know y it is upset. because of the rapid rocks that roll down hills, water that smacks ants when it rains. towers of leaves only to be jumped into. non has a point. no one knows wats hiding. nothing is hiding but no one knows wat could be. no one wants to know but only go on in life with tails between legs. but love can stab u in the heart and sometimes it feels good at first but then... u fall... and sometimes the good can last forever. i know wat i want .... wat do u... lives and souls fly over me with crooked dagers...